I'm sorry Darling~

I love you. And so i decided to trust you again. I dont mean to say things that are so harsh and hurt you so deeply. But i hope you can understd my disappointment too. Im so sorry to have hurt you through my words and actions... Sorry.

I want a long term relationship with you. I want to spend my precious time with that special someone who will spend the rest of his life with me. And from what i see, i feel that you are so pressurized and controlled by me that you cant breathe... And you gave me the feeling that being with me you are not happy and cant lead ur own way of life... That's why i initiate the break-up. I dont want to see you looking so pathetic staying in this relationship... Just dont wanna waste your time on someone who is trying to tie you around your neck... Im sorry~

I really dont mean to control you lidat... Smoking is bad for ur health and seriously i really cannot stand the smell of cigarettes... But if somtimes once in a while you really need a stick you can talk to me. Im not that unreasonable afterall lor. But when it comes to clubbing, im more concern because clubs/pubs are very sophisicated with sophisicated people... i dont want my boyfriend to go there and get "polluted"... especially with all the girls out there... Or in other words, im afraid to lose you...

I agree with you. Love and trust come together. Without trust, there shall be no more love or meaning in continuing a relationship... And so i want to trust you again. I want to believe in you and pin hopes on you once again. Read through the smses you sent to me when i wanted a break up the first time, and your promises melted me once again. Since you said all you need is time, and want me to give you time to proof everything to me, i will grant your wish. Cause i love you and i believe you can do it. I will trust you all over again. Promise.

Vice-versa, i want you to tell me even before you do it. I dont want to wait till i find out myself or see it with my own eyes. That kind of feeling is some sort of being "betrayed". I will feel disappointed as well. So please do tell me. I may get unhappy or even angry if i feel that it is unaccepted. But i hope you know im not that unreasonable. And if you ever do things without telling me, i hope you do confess to me. I will appreciate that. And since you agreed to my expectations this morning, there is no reason for me to not trust you again.

I wanna be with you and build a stronger relationship with you. I love you and i will trust you. Meanwhile, i will keep my temper in check. Im sorry dear...