I know im in the wrong again~

I shouldnt have shouted at you yesterday.
I shouldnt have scolded you at the slightest thing.
I shouldnt have lost my temper every now and then.
I shouldnt have bullied you when im in a foul mood.

I should have put myself in your shoes.
I should have consider your feelings before saying anything out of my bloody mouth.
I should have apologised before you left.
I should have held on tight to you and say "i love you" when we were on our way to bus stop.

I just wanna say how sorry i am. I know it's all my fault and you've already been very tolerant with me. Dear, please dont refused to pick up my calls cause it simply hurts too much. Dear, please dont ever say you wanna be alone cause it simply tells me i cant give you happiness. Dear, please dont ever say you still love me when you just disappear like that coz it doesnt mean anything. Dear, i seek your forgiveness and hope you'll call me once you've read this entry...

Dear, i am sorry... I wont do that again... Really.

Ps: By the time you read this, guess im already waiting for you right at ur void deck~